Dreams and Irritation

Lately, I've been able to wake up remembering bits and pieces from my dreams.  Lately they've been fairly mundane, things about walking to places, memories of high school, and stuff like that.  Last night was a bit different, however.  It may be just because I slept for so long, but who knows?

Dreams feel so normal when you're in them.  It's like how the movie Inception  is, in that you suddenly are in the middle of it all, yet it feels completely normal to you despite you not recalling how you got there. Or at least that's how you remember them after you've woken.

What I can remember of last night is vague, but there were a few key things to note.  The beginning (of what I can remember) took me through the world in first person, and for some strange reason, it reminded me of Fallout. I ended up going to several different places, including a gas station and a store.  It appeared to me that I was in the United States.

Is there a "Plan"?

Makes you wonder, who are they playing against?

I try not to nit pick about other people's beliefs, but I was thinking last night while responding to the PBP topic I chose to start out with.  The question was, "What makes you a pagan?" and among those answers I provided, I included that I believe that we make our own fate, and that nothing is predetermined.

I remember often times being told, "God has a plan for us/you," "It's not what God wanted," and my personal favorite, "Don't worry, it's all part of God's plan."

Based on my own personal beliefs (which are, to say, the ones that feel the most 'right' to me, but may not necessarily be what someone else believes), the idea of God and Goddess having a plan for me kind of makes me giggle.  To me, God and Goddess are always there, whether we choose to interact with them or not.  It is I who choose what I do, and to think any different would send me into a spiraling depression (is that just me, or would others do the same?).

That all being said, I took the liberty of re-versing myself on what the Bible says God's plan is for us.  In the process, I discovered this website, which outlines the general idea fairly clearly.  Some lines may be an actual quote from the page, so be sure to drop by and make sure I didn't miss anything important.

Lengthy, read on if you wish.

Weddings, Beltane, and decorating, oh my

There's us and to the left is Janina, who was our lovely celebrant.

Good news, everyone.  I got hitched! Will and I got married on the 22nd of October.  We are excited to finally have entered such a wonderful stage in our lives together.  Once we started talking to each other those three years ago, I remember distinctly thinking: This is it. He's the one. And yup. I was right. :)  I'm the happiest I've ever been.

Also good news: not too long until Will and I get to go to the US! I'm super excited to introduce him to everyone in my family stateside, as well as my friends.  He's looking forward to the trip as well - though he insists on getting the majority of the window seats on the flights...

Even more good news: Beltane is coming up (for us down under), Halloween as well, and I am super excited.  Growing up, I loved Halloween, it was my favorite holiday.  It still is.  Though now I am preparing to celebrate Beltane, a majority of my 31st will be taken up by watching some good ol' scary movies with my husband and hoping some Trick or Treaters drop by.  I even bought a little witch hat to wear, ha ha.

For Beltane I think I may encourage Will to drive us out to Wangi for a little bit of a walk in nature.  I'm not used to Aussie seasons yet, and I have to say this winter felt like an autumn or a spring to me.  I mean heck, my neighbor's flowers were blooming all winter.  But I am beginning to notice the little things - really gorgeous flowers were blooming on the side of the road today, it made me want to pull over and take a look but we needed to get to Tuggerah to get my ring resized before huge amounts of people started arriving for late shopping night.

I have been thinking about what I want to do with the spare room now. I think I want to add some colorful cloths, lots of pillows, some small tables, assemble some speakers there, and turn it into a place for relaxing and meditation.  I've been feeling the need to find a comfortable place to do that for a little while now, and Will doesn't seem opposed to the idea.  A little bit of color and rope lights would make that place so much more welcoming and comfortable.


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