Losing Contact

I try not to get all mopey.  I really do.  But since moving to Australia, I've realized just how lonely it can get, being far, far away from people I used to see every once in a while.  People I used to be close with.

I don't know if it's just a normal part of growing older, or my moving to another country, or any of the other many, many things that come to mind.  However, I am finding that a few people that I once were pretty good friends with (well, as far as I believed) are no longer speaking to me, despite my attempts to contact them through most common means I have available at the moment.

It's incredibly depressing, isn't it?

I really do hate losing friends, but I can't help but think that it's just something that I'm doomed to repeat for the rest of my life.  My mind dwells on past friendships, and the turbulent ways in which they ended.  Back then, I always thought that it was the worst way to lose a friend ever.

But I was wrong.  There is a way to lose friends that is worse than fighting and bickering -- silence.

It's not knowing whether or not they are just distracted, or irritated, or if they just don't care anymore.  It makes me feel like I'm a little kid again.  Confusion, frustration, loneliness.  It's so uncomfortable.

I'm not sure what to do, really.  I feel that if I move in any one direction towards an answer, I'll be causing a problem or be irritating someone in some way.  Should I try to talk, or should I just let our friendship fade away?  I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.